I Have Points Left!

For the first time since I re-joined WW,I made it through the weekend with points to spare! Granted, it was only 4 points but I'm thrilled considering I've consistently gone over. Yay me!

Scary Things

I went on SparkPeople today and used a couple of their cool calculators. For one you enter a target weight, how much you plan to lose per week and it will give you a date can you expect to get to that weight by. I entered a rate of 1.5 ppw (trying to be realistic) and it gave me a goal date of July 26, 2012.

The other calculator you enter a future date and how many pounds you plan to lose per week and it will tell you how much you can weigh by then.
I actually found these calculators to be pretty motivating. If I stick to losing at a pace of 1 1/2 pounds per week, I could be at my goal in 11 months!!! WOW!!! That is an exciting thought.

For now I decided to make my first big goal to be under 200 ell b's. The calculator's estimated date is April 5, 2012. I have not been under 200 ell b's since 1996. That would simply be aMaZiNg!!! Hopefully, for both of these calendars, a rate of 1 1/2 ppw is realistic. I've already realized that my original 2 ppw goal to lose 60 #'s by my birthday was/is not doable considering the eating plan I have chosen.

Now I'm scared. I've put it out there. I want to follow through. I don't want to fail. I don't want to give up.

I still plan to make and meet smaller goals along the way. My 1st goal was 5 pounds. The 2nd was 10. The 3rd was 5%. My 4th goal was 15. My 5th and current small goal 20. Then 25, then 10%.

I was watching the QVC the other night because I ran across a presentation for the Tracy Anderson Method. I first saw Tracy Anderson on Oprah when there was an episode all about Gwyneth Paltrow. She demonstrated her workout with Tracy Anderson and talked about how this trainer changed her body and life after the birth of her 2nd child. Now this trainer is schlepping her workout "method" on DVD's on QVC and infomercials. Well, I briefly lost my ever loving mind and ordered the damn DVD's.

The DVD's consist of 1 cardio workout and 9 levels of toning workouts. I'm already planning on not doing the cardio workout. It is very high impact and a lot of jumping around. That is dangerous to my back and not good for my creaky knee so I am going to stick with walking on the treadmill. The toning workouts are 9 levels that you do 10 days each. Realistically speaking, I won't do this 6 days a week. And I feel it's foolish to make too lofty a goal and set myself up for failure. I will start simply by starting and go from there. I'll also have to see how I do physically with these workouts. If I'm sore and they are too difficult for my current fitness level, I'll have to scale back to, say, every other day and work my way up from there. So, it's obvious that I will be at level 1 for far longer than 10 days.

What appealed to me is that they are only 30 minutes each AND not a bunch of squats and lunges. I LOATHE squats and lunges and those alone will turn me off of a workout immediately. I know it is inevitable for me to add toning/weight training/resistance exercises to get the body that I want. I have no intention on trying to look like Gwyneth Paltrow for hell sakes. But I don't want to be all wiggly jiggly. And weight training increases your metabolism.

Crap, I hate committing myself to something that I will fail to stick with again and then I'm left with a $100.00 dust collector. Now I've put it on my blog so the whole world knows.

I'm scared.

Weekly Weigh-In

Down 3 pounds this week. Something can't be right. I was over 50 points for the week. Maybe it'll reflect on the scale next week? I don't mean for it to sound like I'm not happy about the loss. I am! However, it definitely does not make me think to myself, that I can continually go over and still lose weight. I know I can't get away with making that a habit if I want to reach my ultimate goal.

My current average is 1.5 ppw. I lost a ppd so I'm now down to 38 ppd.

Get Real

It's time for me to get real about my slow progress. Slow progress isn't a bad thing. As I've said before, the theory is that the slower it comes off the longer it stays off. However, I'm turning 40 and had a weight loss goal in mind so I can look as good as possible by then. I fiddle-farted around overcame some emotional obstacles for the first 6 months of the year which lowered my goal. I really want to get to 2 ppw losses. The only reason I haven't, really, is because I keep going over my points on the weekends. Hello! I'm over 55 points for the week! 55 dammit!

I need to be more aware and say no to a few more things. Sunday, for instance, I didn't need two helpings of Doritos at my friend's boy's bday party, I didn't need an extra piece of chicken at dinner, nor did I need to eat the unfinished half of my niece's biscuit. Saturday, I didn't need shrimp salad and potato salad - since they were both mayonnaise based, I should have only selected one.

It's time to get real, accept responsibility for my choices and face what is necessary if I want to increase my weight loss.

Awesome Website

www.runsforcookies.com


I found this a success story on SparkPeople that I really liked. This link is to her website. One of my favorite excerpts from her website:
A couple of years ago, I asked [a] question of an online friend who had lost about 200 pounds, and she told me, "There is NOTHING I can say that will give you the motivation you need to reach your goal. You need to find that motivation within yourself, stop making excuses, and JUST DO IT." I had no idea what she was talking about! Find motivation within myself?? Now that I am here, I completely understand what she meant...

I can't wait to learn more from her website.

Weekly Weigh In

I had my first weigh-in at home Friday morning. I switched to the online only plan since I hadn't been able to attend a single meeting. Plus it saves me $30.00 a month! I'm down a total of 13.4 pounds. An average of 1.3 ppw. I have regretfully accepted that I have NO chance of making my original birthday goal. I wanted to lose 50 pounds by my birthday. Seeing as it has taken me 10 weeks to lose 13.4 ell bees, that goal is not going to happen. Unless I want to go on some super strict diet that would be difficult to stick to and make me feel deprived and miserable. So, guess I'll be turning 40 while still on the chubby side. Less chubby, yes. But not as chubbiless as I wanted to be.

Once again I went over my points this weekend, by like a zillion. Man, why can't I "get" that? I still keep telling myself, if I had an iPhone, I would be better about not going over so much. I need to get in the habit of checking my points before I eat a meal. Especially at weekend get-togethers.

I've had to get real with my thoughts about weight loss. In all the prior years, I would lose fast then peter out. I would lose 30 pounds in 4 months then spend the other 8 months of the year gaining it all back. What is more important on the journey this time around, is that I break that cycle. If losing slower means keeping it off, then that's what I'm going to do. I have to accept the fact that doing so means I won't be able to lose 50 #'s by 12/29/11. If I had started in January, as originally planned, I would have been able to meet that goal. But, I didn't, so I have to move on.

I have 18 weeks to go until my birthday. If I get control of my points on the weekends, I think I can lose 25 pounds by then.

Lesson Not So Much Learned

About a month ago, I went over my points severely over a weekend. I said then "lesson learned." It turns out I didn't learn. I'm still going over my points. It's a pattern almost every weekend. This weekend I went over by 5. Dang! I've got to figure out how to get over this hurdle.