1.2 Club

I added up all of my points for the weekend. Not good, folks. Not good. I used all of my 35 flexies and all of my 16 activity points (points earned by exercising) and still went over 5 points for the week. Can you say, "Reality check?"

I wasn't able to weigh in yesterday and attend my usual meeting. I stopped in today just to weigh in. I lost another 1.2 ell bees. That is the 3rd week in a row that I've had the identical loss of 1.2 #'s. I'm a little relieved considering the weekend I had. However, I will be frustrated if the losses continued to be this small. Yeah, yeah, yeah...at least it's better than a gain. I know it. I just don't want to hear it. I'll take it this week though.

I am now down 12.2 total pounds this time around. I've lost 40 total since the first time I joined in 2007. This week I also hit my 5% weight loss goal. Apparently I will get some sort of recognition for it in next week's meeting. Maybe a sticker for my bookmark???

On a sad note, I must say good-bye to 28...
...points. I am now in the 220's and drop down to 27 points a day. What will I eliminate? I think this week I will choose to reduce the type/amount of coffee creamer I use. Maybe no fat-free croutons on my salad? It's a little concerning to think about even lower points in the future. Yikes! I won't think about that now. I'll think about that tomorrow. (Know the movie anyone?)

Here's to week 7.

Missed Meeting

I didn't get to weigh-in today because I had to take my son to the doctor. I really wanted to get it over with due to the bad weekend. I still haven't finished adding the points online yet. I guess it's kind of too late now? I'm going to anyway because I want to know what the damage was. I plan to go to a meeting tomorrow instead.

What A Weekend

I had an overnight scrapbooking retreat this past weekend. There were treats, treats, treats, and more treats. Pizza and salad Saturday night. I brought my own dressing and told myself I would only have 2 pieces of pizza. I had 3. Then between midnight and 3:30am ate a few handfuls of tortilla chips, a handful of almonds, and several bite size Snickers.

The next morning there was a breakfast buffet at the hotel. I had one plate: hashbrowns, cheesey eggs, and bacon; a bowl of pineapple; 2 cups of coffee with half and half; and 3 bites of a cinnamon roll (it wasn't very good so I didn't finish it). Somewhere in between that and lunch I ate a peanut butter Fiber One bar. Then I ate some more almonds. For lunch it was bagel sandwiches (at least the bagels were whole wheat and there was light mayo) with Sun Chips. A couple hours after that they brought around a plate of homemade cookies. When asked if we would like a cookie, my sister said, yes, it's not like I haven't had enough junk today. My sentiments exactly. How could anyone say no to a homemade Oreo??? Sometime between the cookie and leaving at 6:00pm, I had several more bite size snickers and another handful of almonds. I was so dehydrated and full of gas-o-line when I got home. I felt awful and bloated. I'm sure the 4 hours of sleep didn't help. I had a big salad for dinner and drink of water, and was asleep by 9:30pm.

I stopped even bothering to try to keep track of my points. I was going to be so "good." The mayhem continued on Sunday. I got so starving running errands that I got a grilled cheese kids meal from Sonic, then ate a PayDay bar. At least it wasn't a super sized adult meal with a bacon double cheeseburger or something ridiculous like that. Then ate a big ol' steak at my parents' for dinner. Plus I had a piece of eclair pie, which was probably 4 points, so not too bad, but I shouldn't have had considering the rest of the weekend.

I'm DREADING the scale this Wednesday. DREADING it!

Weigh-In #6

I only lost 1.2 #'s this week, which was the exact same as last week. I feel like I'm working so hard to have such small losses. I am fast-walking on the treadmill for an hour 5 times a week. I am using up all of my flex points (which is part of the plan), but not my exercise points. I'm staying on plan! Why so s-l-o-w? Is it because I'm old(er)? What the hel-icopter? I was really hoping for 2 #'s a week.

On a positive note, I haven't had any cravings. Maybe I won't (ha-ha). I have consistently worked out on the treadmill every weeknight since we bought it and dare I say it's gotten easier? Is it possible to have physical improvement in that short of time (4 weeks)?

I am down 11 total pounds in 5 weeks.

Day 1 of Week 5

I'm sitting here watching my son eat a scoop of Rocky Road ice cream. And I scooped it for him. Is it weird that I don't want any? I'm sure that won't last. For those who don't know how the Weight Watcher (which from here on out will be referred to as WW, because I am too lazy to type that out EVERY time) program works, you count points instead of calories. All food is converted to points via a magic equation of calories, fat and fiber. In general, one point is approximately 50 calories. The higher the fiber, the lower the points (opposite for foods higher in fat). In addition, you get 35 bonus points, called Flex Points, each week to spend however you want. You can eat a little extra everyday, or save them for weekends, holidays or any kind of splurge. Points eaten today: 29 Flex points for the week used: 1 My son has now abandoned his dish of ice cream. There's a good 2 spoonfuls left. How would it be to have ice cream mean so little to me? I'm going to rinse it out rather than polish off the last lick or two. It's time for me to put him to bed and get on the treadmill.

Losing Weight Sux

Here I am again. Back on Weight Watchers. This is the 5th (maybe 6th) time I've joined in 11 years. Eek! I've just about tried it all: Weight Watchers, Atkins, HCG, LA Weight Loss, and various pills and potions. I've spent thousands of dollars that I wish I could get back. A positive note is that I usually have success when I try to lose weight. A negative note is that I always give up at around the 3 month mark. Why? Boredom? Subconscious self-sabotage? Lazy? Unmotivated? Just plain like food? I'm not exactly sure why. I hope to figure it out this time. This time, sigh. This better be The Time. The final time. Not only am I single again, but now I am a mother who's pushing 40. FORTY! I don't want to be fat and 40. I swore I wouldn't be fat and 30. I was. For just about all of my 30's. I am now 38. I started gaining significantly when I was 25. At 26 I was pretty much fat with no (permanent) improvement since. My knees are starting to get weak. That is a motivator to get into better shape. I have a list of motivational reasons to lose the weight once and for all: my health, my son, my self-esteem, to feel better, to move better, to look better, to shove it in my soon-to-be ex-mother-in-law's face. I want to lose the weight before my son is old enough to know that I'm fat. Before other kids are old enough to ask him, "Why is your mom fat?" Some might think fat is a harsh word to use. I could use the word chubby, but why sugar coat it? I have a friend who was recently selected to be on a televised, 60 day, local weight loss program. I figure if she can put her weight on the news, for all of the state to see, and if everyone who's been on The Biggest Loser can put their weight on TV for all of the world to see, then I can post my weight on this blog. Hopefully doing so will increase my accountability. It won't just be between me and Weight Watchers anymore. It will be out there. So here goes. My all-time highest weight, when I re-started Weight Watchers when my son was 7 months old (May 2007), was 269 pounds. I gained 33-35 pounds during my pregnancy, which I thought was pretty good. The not so good part was that I was already overweight when I got pregnant, and hardly none of it came off after I delivered. Today was my 4th week on Weight Watchers this time around. I joined March 17, 2010, weighing 241.4. Today's weight is 231.6. So, there it is, in all of it's chubby, dimpled glory.