Improvement

When I walked on the treadmill last night I decided to warm-up longer and more slowly. Usually I just start at 3mph and go. Last night I started at 2mph and slowly worked up to 3mph for 5 minutes. It felt lame. Like, let's get this show on the road. I also skipped the 4mph intervals again. Eureka! No shin splints! I walked 60 minutes pain free!

I ate dinner after, as per usual. Heartburn! I have thought about switching to having a protein shake after for dinner and saving my real dinner for lunch. Still deciding.

I've also made a new rule for myself. No cereal for breakfast. I have to eat a vat to get full. I will save cereal for when I want a sweet snack.

Still haven't started my diet eating plan.

Procrastinator.
Putting off the inevitable.

Yuck

Eating healthy sometimes just doesn't taste good. I'm forcing an apple down because I'm hungry. And because it's good for me.

Hard

I walked on the treadmill five days last week. I walked @ 3 mph for 45 minutes with a one minute intervals at 4 mph every 4 minutes. It was hard. My shins hurt so bad!!! I had to keep stopping because the burning would get so intense.

I skipped Friday and walked Saturday instead. Saturday was the worst of all. It hurt. Is it because I skipped a day in between walks? Today I tried the same routine but couldn't do it. BURNING!!!!!!! I had to drop down to 2.8 mph with no intervals. I still had to stop several times but it did get slightly better by the end. I walked an hour instead of 45 minutes in an attempt to make up the speed difference.

I hate that it's hard. I'm disappointed in myself. I'm disappointed that I let myself get to this state. I'm afraid it will always be hard. I'm tired of struggling. I didn't change my eating last week. I need a lot of work in that department. I still feel WW is my best option, but today I've considered trying it on my own. It will save money and it would be difficult to make meetings due to my schedule and being a single mom. I'm afraid though. I'm afraid of failing again.

O.B. City

I live on the outskirts of O.B. City and it's time to move. I either need to move to a different city or I will end up moving to central O.B. City. I don't want to live smack dab in the middle of O.B. City.

I have two moving companies in mind: Weight Watchers (again) or SparkPeople. There are positives and negatives for both. SparkPeople is free and Weight Watchers costs $39.95 a month. Weight Watchers, in my opinion, has a better accountability factor due to the weekly meetings & weigh-ins. With SparkPeople, it's personal accountability, which I do need to learn. Both have online programs which provide helpful tools and information. What is making me lean towards Weight Watchers is the Flex Points. I like the idea of having extra points (calories) to spend however I want when I want. And the math is done for me. With SparkPeople, I would have to figure that out myself. I'm not sure how to figure that out or if I can. I'll have to research it.

Anyway, I am leaning toward Weight Watchers (yes, again). But feel guilty about spending the money. I will have to ponder and pray to decide. Plus, I feel like an idiot. This is like my 99th attempt. Embarrassing.

I don't know what I currently weigh. My scale needs batteries and I am out at home. I'll buy new ones this weekend and face the reality then.